Note to Self : The Sum

I found this list in my notes recently:

  • Pain
  • Fear
  • numbing
  • Remembering
  • Fallen officer vs street kid
  • Work

I’m fairly sure that, in all of this, I was attempting to parse it the meaning of life. That is, admittedly, a big undertaking for a four inch screen but is what I found myself wrestling with when I noticed the society I happily count myself a part of, honors a fallen officer via the naming of a bridge while that same society rushes to erase the memories of the abused woman and children who live under that same bridge.


I don’t discount the work of men and women who work tirelessly to help our communities be the best version of themselves. I’m grateful for their and their families work and sacrifice.


But I want to live in a world where we stand up and notice the others we’ve lost. I want to speak aloud the names and paint the faces of the children we’ve allowed to go hungry, who’s tears we’ve neglected to dry. Children who, despite living in the world’s most wealthy nation, are pushed quite literally into the gutter.


I want to remember both the heroes and the downtrodden, because the community I live in is the sum of all of its parts.

I didn’t know Roberta. And I have no idea how {or even if} a red lighter, a bottle of kumbotcha, a tiny minion toy, a dart, dice, and gold Mardi Gras beads signify her. But, like most memorials, this one is less about this one human and more about loss and memory in a way that is real and important. Even if it’s not beautiful in a traditional way. 

I didn’t know Roberta. And I have no idea how {or even if} a red lighter, a bottle of kumbotcha, a tiny minion toy, a dart, dice, and gold Mardi Gras beads signify her. But, like most memorials, this one is less about this one human and more about loss and memory in a way that is real and important. Even if it’s not beautiful in a traditional way. 

Let’s focus less on the heroic and aesthetically pleasing so we can see {and perhaps even help} the sad and dirty and real.

xoxo,

Paige